Meditation Journey

 I've flirted with meditation for years. I'll do a little then put it off. Last year I finally attended a 10-Day Vipassana Silent Retreat. It was extremely difficult. I was not an experienced meditator in any sense of the word, I'm overweight and not flexible. By Day 5 I had to request a chair. Had I started in a chair I don't think I would have had any issues. I did have a couple powerful psychedelic experiences and convened with nature on my meditative walks. All in all it was a good experience, I'm not certain I'll do it again. If I need a reset I'll probably go to a cabin for a couple days. 

Having said all that, I still didn't meditate that much the next few months. Despite my therapist telling me I was the ideal candidate. Well enter Covid19. With few exceptions I've meditated every day since mid-March. Some days I take it more seriously than others but overall what a change. I suffer from anxiety and other things so this is exactly what I needed. I'm not hard on myself when I can't do it well and I just make a habit of it. Carve out a little space for it at the same time every day to get in the routine. If you miss a day, who cares, just pick it up the next.